Soon

Soon I'll keep this blog updated regularly.

Soon I'll post pictures of Evie and her favorite cousin, Xander.

Soon I'll cross everything off of my to-do list.

Soon I'll have a whole new to-do list.

Soon my house will be clean and uncluttered.

Soon Shawn, Evie and myself will make a new mess.

Soon I will be "perfect".

For now you'll have to settle for less then perfect, in-frequent postings without pictures;o) I do vow that I will have a new post with pictures of our silly girl before the fireworks fly on the fourth!

Sleep

Do you ever have one of those nights when you feel no fatigue??? I am having one of those nights. It's past 1am and I don't feel one bit of tiredness. I could clean my whole house right now or scrapbook several pages, if it wouldn't wake up my sleeping child and husband. The bad news is, that this will most likely bite me on the tush about 7 or 8am when said darling child wants to play and her mother is dragging from staying up way too late. Am I the only one who is like this?? I love nights. I wish the world weren't so focused on getting up early, that sleeping in was regarded as the norm. Then I would fit in a little more and my husband wouldn't have to come and usher me to bed. I wish I may, I wish I might, have this wish I wish tongiht....

Sweet dreams....

Oliver

Today, I made a very tough decision. Today, I said goodbye. Today, I lost my friend. If you've never met Oliver then you've never seen a real life version of Garfield. He loved to eat. He loved to beg for food. He love to have his chin scratched, his ears itched, and his neck "massaged." He loved to sit on your lap. He loved tuna out of the can. He loved to play with "mice" and straws. He was very lazy. He was scared of going outside but tried to sneak out when he could. He was beautiful and sweet and loved. He developed anxiety following the birth of Evie and hasn't been as happy or healthy since. And so today, I told him I loved him. I told him how lucky I was to have him and I held him one last time. Then I stroked his head as he took his last breath. I miss him.

Oliver Alexander
b. February 14, 2000
d. June 23, 2009

My friend and companion. None will replace you.

Update #2

Shawn did indeed have a bile leak. It goes to figure that he would experience the uncommon, but serious complication of gallbladder surgery;o) They put two stints in at 4pm and he is feeling better. It will be 24-36 hours give/take until he is feeling 100% (besides his recent surgery-but even that feels better). He's a bit goofy tonight because of the medication they gave him, can't even remember me being there afterward. So we are hopefully, and finally on the road to recovery. The stints will be removed via the same method in 4 weeks. We really appreciated all your kind words and especially your prayers. Thanks!

I just wanted to update you all on Shawn and my weekend. On Saturday, Shawn (my hubby) developed complications related to his recent gallbladder problem. This resulted in two 911 calls, one ambulance ride, two ER visits, a hospital stay and a lot of morphine. He has told me that this new pain is worse then the original and while vicodin helped with his previous symptoms, he can only remain comfortable with nausea medication and high doses of morphine. He is currently hospitalized and they think that he is leaking bile into his abdomen. He has a scan this morning so they can get a definitive diagnoses. These leaks can seal on there own or he may need a procedure called ECRP, which involves threading a tube into the stomach, through the pancreas and into the gallbladder area. As with all procedures this carries risks. They have a few other possibilities for his severe pain and these are diagnosed and/or treated with the same procedure. He's pretty discouraged and wants to be on the road to recovery as you can imagine. Pray not only for his healing but for a bolstering of his spirit. Evelyn has been spending some extra time with good friends of ours including a stay over because I did not get out of the ER until 4am on Sunday. She enjoyed the time with her friend Abbie. She decided 6:15a would be a good rise and shine time this morning, she's getting her 2 year molars, has a cold, and is missing her daddy and the normalcy of her schedule. Her crabbiness, while understanable, has reached a new level. While I keep the business humming, her grandma Lyn has come to watch her. She has lupus and a cold. She needs prayer for strength and a supernatural energy. I am, as you can imagine, am running on little sleep, busy keeping the office running, trying to maintain a "normal" mom attitude, visting/waiting/advocating with and for Shawn, and caring for my family. I am praying that some things will be discovered that will lead to healing for Shawn and for the strength and energy to endure throughout the rest of his illness. We are hoping that he will be back on his feet soon. I miss the man I married who is usually training for 1/2 marathons, keeping me laughing, and as with most of you is my rock. Right now he's kind of a floating, damaged buoy. I feel a little disoriented without him.

We're set..

Shawn has his gallbladder removal on Wednesday at a blurry-eyed 7:30a.m. Us non-early birds will be there at 6:30a.m. for check-in. Please cover Shawn and his surgeon's in your prayers! Thanks!!