Way to fast

Sometimes it seems like Evie ages a month at a time instead of a day at time. Shawn and I have been reminiscing, watching videos from when she was a newborn and I am amazed at all the changes. Honestly, a part of me misses those little newborn moments. The way the she cried (ok--I don't miss the way she cried all the time), the little "o" face she made, the sweet newborn movements, the hiccups and sneezes, and how tiny that little body was. It's amazing that the little baby that I held on that first day is this silly, happy, crawling, moving, and shaking 9 month old. Today she pulled herself up for the first time. Soon she will be walking. My heart cries..."wait slow down"!!! It's all going too fast for me. Then there was the gentleman today that talked about us having "the next one" soon. Hold the train...did he say the next one. I am WAY to busy loving Evie to even think about the next one. Who has time for that when we're so busy chasing Evie around keeping her out of trouble. Here are some of the fun we've been having:

Nothing is better then a little bit of Evie's kisses. Makes mama's day! And night! Pretty much anytime of the day is better with a little bit of sweetness.

Loving up Grandpa!

Playing with Grandma!

Evie loves playing with the ball...and trying to eat it too!

Evie spent quite a bit of time "talking" to Auntie Candii. She had A LOT to say. She loves talking to her auntie.

Being a mom is the most awesome thing in the world. Being Evelyn's mom is priceless.

Xander and birthday wishes

I have been a little sappy and sad today and yesterday. It's all Keesha's fault. We received in the mail yesterday the invitation to Xander's first birthday party. My heart is broken because we are unable to go and I sobbed reading the invite. Keesha has asked that we write a letter to Xander to be opened on his 18th birthday. Well, needless to say I cried writing it AND reading it.

Xander--words cannot express how much my heart aches that we will not be at your first birthday celebration. I miss you so much and I hate that you are so far away. To far away to hug or kiss. To far away to laugh and smile with you. To far away to play with you. To far away to watch grow. To far away for Evie to play with you. To far away to hold and love. I miss you little man.

Well I've done it again...I'm crying.

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Thank you to all our veterans. We are so grateful for your sacrifice. God bless America!

Congratulations, Tina!

I have to give a "shout out" to one of my best friends, Tina. I am so proud of her sticking it out doing the sometimes horrible job of subbing while waiting for a classroom of her own. Her patience paid off and she'll be teaching 2nd grade next year in her very own classroom!! She is an amazing person and will be an outstanding teacher. I look forward to all of the "kids say the darnedest things" stories, Tina. You are awesome and you deserve it. Congrats!

Annoyances and silly monkeys

Anyone who has recently had a cold can tell you how annoying it is. I've had more colds since Evelyn entered the world then I had in the 10 years prior. Needless to say I am a big baby when it comes to dealing with them. FINALLY my last cold has disappeared except for some night coughing and a plugged ear. It's the plugged ear that is REALLY driving me bananas. Not only am I hearing things muffled BUT I'm getting feedback like there is a delayed high-pitched microphone in my ear. I don't know how much longer I will be able to stand it.

Now for some silly monkey moments. I caught Evie carrying her sippy cup this afternoon. With no free hands she was really quite ingenious in her methodology. She is sure to be something quite spectacular with her creativity. Maybe she'll be an inventor.

We made it

We survived! Here's how the night went:

9:30p--Tawnda cries
10:00p--Start putting Evie to bed in rocker
11:00p--Put Evie in her crib, turn on lullaby CD, turn on monitor w/ nightlite, sneak out
11:05p--Tawnda cries AGAIN, no sound from Evie
11:06-1:45a--Shawn & Tawnda toss and turn
12:05--Shawn gets up to check on Evie, Tawnda says no (I didn't want him to wake her up)
1:45a--Evie cries to be fed, Tawnda gets up and nurses her
2:00a--Evie back in the crib
2:01-2:11a--Evie fusses and Tawnda waits to jump out of bed to rescue her
2:12a--Evie falls silent
2:15-2:49a--Tawnda up coughing (blasted cold!)
3:45a--Evie up again, Tawnda feeds her again
4:00a--Evie in crib again, silent as a mouse
4:05a--Everyone sleeping peacefully
6:30a--Shawn up for work, Evie doesn't stir a bit--even when Shawn looks in on her
8:20a--Tawnda and Evie up.

It was a stressful night, primarily for Shawn and I. We survived and I think we all will benefit from the change. I still miss her. Her co-sleeper is still attached to the bed and I have to stare at it empty at night. It makes me tear up just thinking about it. Evelyn seems unaffected by the change. Same old smiley, curious self. What a doll! Time for bath, her favorite.

Mother's Day

I was MISERABLY sick on Mother's Day soooo I made Shawn re-do the day this Sunday. It was a pretty typical day...church...Noodles & Co...SHOPPING. Shawn did marvelous...not too many complaints. But the best part...spending the day with Shawn and Evie. And what's Mother's Day without some mother and daughter photos.





It's funny how you can focus so much on something that you become blind to everything around you. I can honestly say that Shawn and I have been somewhat lax in taking care of each other and our relationship. It becomes even more evident when you look back through over 8 months of photos and there is only 1 or 2 of you and your spouse together. That's what our photos look like. Our album is very Evie-centric. Not that that is bad BUT it's like Mr. & Mrs. A disappeared. We are working on remedying that...starting with this photo.


It was too hard for Shawn to be serious for too long. Then he got silly. I love him. I couldn't ask for a sweeter husband.

My first post!

I've wanted to start a blog for awhile and finally got one started. For those of you wondering what the title means then you don't know me as well as you think. Not so long into our marriage Shawn pointed out something that I'd never noticed before. One of my favorite things to say is How "blank" is that? Some examples might be "how silly is that? how funny is that? how crazy is that?" I say it all the time. So much so that now Shawn says it. It's a running joke in our family. See one post and you already learned something new about me.

This will be a personal blog as well as a family blog. Come to see what my crazy mind is up to and what new things my little heart is doing everyday.

For those that I haven't told, Evelyn learned how to crawl "forward" on Saturday. I use the emphasis because she could crawl before then...but to her frustration it was only backwards. Now she is all over the place. I am in a panic with all the new worries that this causes. We have NOT baby-proofed and Evie is quite the curious monkey. She will quickly learn the meaning of NO! We will also be putting herself to sleep in the crib to tonight. I'll let you know how it goes. I am sure she will come out quite unscathed and well rested. I, on the other hand, am sure to cry and miss her like crazy. Not to mention lay awake straining to hear her breathe or move. I will probably bear a few scars. We mothers have it tough...our children have us by the heartstrings. Shawn is likely to be unaffected by the whole thing.